Bringing up a cup of tea the first I'm greeted with are, "You make me so upset" (or words to that effect). The morning continues with a monologue of how we are no longer connected, I don't do anyhtning, she has changed and gone along with things that she didn't want to for the sake of us all. And if nothing changes it will get serious (she will leave) then it will be all 'her fault' (meaning my fault but people will see if otherwise).
Really makes me want to 'praise Jesus' this morning, not. Not that he has anything to do with this, or has he.....?
Certainly the message, "come close to me" followed by, "its all your fault you need to change" doesn't work for me.
I thought I was changing in small measures. She doesn't realise I have started meditating again and I am trying to stop masturbating (I wonder how often she thinks I masturbate? Recently its been at least twice a day, so try to stop and this past week that means only once that is a big change).
Well we have friends coming round for lunch what sort of day will it be?